I haven't....

I haven't written for a while.
I haven't been free for even longer.
I haven't been satisfied.
I haven't been happy.
I haven't been smiling.
I haven't been searching.
I haven't been dreaming.
I haven't been acting.
I haven't been glad.
I haven't been true with myself.
I haven't been honest.
I haven't been fascinating.
I haven't been original.
I haven't laughed for eternity.
I haven't looked Him straight in the eyes.
I haven't been brave.
I haven't been nice.
I haven't been kind.
I haven't been bubbly.
I haven't been considerate.
I haven't been daring.
I haven't been hopeful.
I haven't been expressive.
I haven't been outspoken.
I haven't been opinionated.
I haven't been unforgettable.
I haven't been unique.
I haven't been stubborn.
And most of all,
I haven't been me!

I think I'm not the only one here. Some of my closest friends feel like this a lot of the time. I suspect it's a teenage phase - something we have to go through in order to grow up, to become who we are supposed to become... US.
Honestly, I really don't have a clue why I wrote up there,I guess it was just waiting there to be said.

Yersterday I watched an incredibly inspiring movie ----> click
It made me stop and contemplate some things, alone and so on. It made me want to become and author. It made me want to have EXPERIENCES, TO LIVE LIFE, TO MAKE IT PERFECT, TO FALL IN LOVE AND TO HAVE NO REGRETS!

I keep listening to this one song over and over and over, daydreaming and imagining things. I know I shouldn't but I just can't help myself. Truthfully, I'm just harming myself more by thinking about these things than if I wasn't, I have to get used to it - that's just how it is :c

Elliot Smith- Between the Bars

Will be writing soon because it's Teacher's Day on Monday and I have a day off.... Will be reading lots and thinking about this....

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Some photos that are mesmerising...